Stupid boy.

Stupid Boy! 

Or am I the stupid one? 

I went for it. Knowing it was going to end up all wrong and guess what... 
IT DID! 

But he is so stupid thats why this whole thing happened.
But Im so stupid for knowing it wasn't going to end right and I kept on pursuing it. 

K cool, Its not that hard to move on, theres like 75 billion other guys in the world that I would be compatible with.

Sucks cause I want you. Still.

I thought I could change you. 

~Never go with that attitude~

Say something, I'm literally giving up on you.

Actually don't, because with every single word that pours out of your mouth, creates a dark and utterly confused ocean that spins around in my head so fast creating a whirl pool, that I'm stuck in the middle of, "Whats that mean?", "He must want me.", Okay, what?", "So he doesn't want me?", "But he said this, so he has to!". I'm so done. 

I don't need this. You're probably reading this thinking, "You obviously know you don't need him so why not let go and just forget about him?" 

Thats what this is, Me completely moving on.
My farewell.

Stupid love. like. lust. 

Whatever the crap it was. 

"Letting go is hard, but sometimes holding on his harder." 

Well Shoot... Life Happens, I guess.

Well...

I messed up.

Not because I wanted to, but because its the only option I had.

I was scared so I had to hold on.
I guess I shouldnt have held on so tightly, but then I would've been terrified.

The end result of this... Is not what I wanted.

And I guess I didn't mess up cause, what I thought was... Wasn't.

So now I have regrets, because I fell for the wrong thing,
while holding on so tightly to the right thing.

If you are confused by this... Ha well I am too.

Instructions:

FUN:

These are instructions on how to have fun:

1. Dress however you want to.

2. Talk in a different accent.

3. Do 35 summer salts down a hill and get real dizzy.

4. Jump in a pool of bouncy balls.

5. Prank call your enemies.

6. Dance.

7. Spin around in lots of circles till you fall down and hit your head and get confused on why it didn't hurt.

8. Sing.

9. Cha Cha

10. Go sledding with your best friend.

11. Be carefree - Its a lot more fun that way. 

Automatic vs. Stick Shift

Everyone around me is so automatic.

I'm Stick Shift.

They're controlled. 

I 'm manual and do things on my own

 and when I think its time for a new gear, 

I shift that myself. 

2 pedals making them 2 dimensional. 

Ive got 3 pedals making me 3 dimensional.

Always wanting the smooth ride.

I believe you learn more from the bumpy ride. 

Learn to drive stick, life will start to make more sense. 

In The Season of Loneliness

Cotton Candy Love

You may disagree to the fact that I think cotton candy is an abstract concept, 

You may think that this bundle of candy floss just dissolves and is not something you can hold.

You can see it, touch it, feel it, taste it, but once you have tasted it, you can no longer see it, touch it or feel it. 

Cotton candy is a bundle of heaven, or a perfectly shaped cloud in the sky. 

Once it hits your tongue, it becomes like love; unholdable and untouchable.

Over time, it dissolves as if it were never there. 

Love can once taste so beautiful and just melt in your mouth, but the taste almost never lasts... It just fades. 

~That's when you go for a new flavor~

This cotton candy that was once just a concept has become THE perfect abstract concept.

Need A Little Time

The worst thing in life is to misunderstand,
and to be misunderstood.
Luckily, we have time.
Time is the best revealer and the best healer.